She's HERE.....

You guessed it....AF FINALLY arrive Saturday. It's about time! I've been waiting impatiently. I went ahead and ordered my gonal-f and scheduled it to be shipped Friday (2 days ago) and it was crazy at what all I had to do to get that done. Apparently our insurance decided to make the pharmacy get tons of paperwork filled out and signed in order for any fertility medicine to be approved. So I spent nearly all day Wednesday trying to make sure the RE's office got the paperwork and faxed it back. Needless to say, one would fax the paper but the other wouldn't get it.....and this went back and forth nearly 4 times until I FINALLY told them to pick up the phone and call the RE's office and get whatever information they needed over the PHONE!!!! After that, they got all they needed and things went smoothly. Anyways, i have my baseline ultrasound and bloodwork scheduled for in the morning which is CD 3 so I should start my meds tomorrow night. Very excited!!!!

This cycle is NOT starting off good....

Ok, last Thursday started off great. I went to my appointment and got to see the "ladies" again (LPN and Nurse Practitioner). I've missed those girls! They are great! Anyways, my ultrasound turned out fine, they took my blood work, and then I got my progesterone shot. They told me that the shot wouldn't hurt as bad as it usually does because they are using a different kind now that is not as "thick" of an oil but the results are the same. I'm pretty tuff, if I say so myself, I never thought the "thick" one hurt too bad so I was like, ok. That's fine with me. Well she gave me my shot (which didn't feel much different) and told me that I should expect AF by monday. If she comes by monday i wouldn't have to do another baseline ultrasound or blood work. I could use everything from today. I'm thinking, "That's great, I wouldn't have to pay another copay or get up extra early to come before work and get pricked with another needle or another ultrasound". So I went off on my merry way to work.

Well, Friday morning I woke up and my butt, hip, thigh...practically my whole right lower side felt like someone had pulled every muscle I had out! I could barely even put pressure on my right leg. Not to mention when I sat down my right butt cheek felt like needles!!! I think she hit a major muscle with the needle because it was nearly unbearable! It has taken until Sunday morning to get back to normal. Lets just say that I am NEVER doing that again. I would rather take the pills and wait for AF to come in two weeks.

So that was one negative thing that has happened so far. SECOND, DH and I decided to go back to using gonal-f injectables instead of follistem because they didn't seem to have as many side effects on me AND I seemed to respond better to that medication. So i asked the nurse and she said "Sure"! Well later that day the nurse called back and said "well, the doc has you on 50 units but gonal-f pen doesn't go that low. So they only way to use that medication is to mix up the ingredients when you get ready to use them and you have to use a syringe to draw out your dosage every night. OK....that doesn't sound too bad but i guess i'm spoiled to the "twist the knob on the pen and it does all the work kind of shot". Needless to say I agreed to go that route because I don't want to use follistem this cycle. We will just have to see how this works out!!!

THIRD, it is now Sunday night and AF is no where to be found!!!! And you know what that means! If she doesn't show up in the morning I am going to have to schedule ANOTHER appointment and have a baseline ultrasound and blood work done AGAIN!!! Not very happy about that one. I don't expect her to show in the morning either because she is showing NO signs that she is coming soon!!!

I sure hope this is not a sign that this cycle is not going to turn out good! Please pray that things start getting better!!!!

Got an Appointment

I spoke with the nurse today and she reviewed my chart and decided they wanted to get some blood work to check all of my levels and also do a ultrasound to measure my endometrium thickness and check and see if those pesky cysts have gone. I agreed with anything they wanted to do. I'm just excited to be back "trying" again. So my appointment is for Thursday morning at 7:30 am. She didn't mention the progesterone shot but I am going to make sure and ask them again when I go. I like getting the shot a whole lot better then having to take the pills for 7 days and then having to wait 7-14 more days for AF to show up. Usually after the shot AF come within a week. So it's much quicker and right now, the sooner- the BETTER!!!

I thought I would leave you with some pics from our weekend at Blue Ridge Mts, GA. DH surprised me and we spent the weekend in a cabin for Valentines Day! He's such a sweetheart!












DH and I at the Scenic Railroad. I love black and white pics.



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A cascading waterfall that we hiked to!



Ali and Lexi were SO TIRED on the way home. They loved going on a trip.

Break Is OVER....

I am so excited that it is time to begin starting to ttc again. Although I really did enjoy the break, 3 months is TOO LONG! I'm officially on CD 40 and AF hasn't shown up yet. And NO I'm not pregnant. I've already taken several tests! LOL. So I'm going to call my RE's office tomorrow and see when I can come in to get a blood pregnancy test and a progesterone shot to bring on AF. Hopefully I can run in one morning this week before work. DH and I have decided to stick with doing injectables and proceeding with IUI #2. I can't wait. I feel very positive about this time. I don't know if it's because i've lost 25lbs and that is something "different" with our ttc plan or it could be just the anticipation from the long wait. But either way I am staying positive!!!!

Blogger Award

Hello Ladies- A very SWEET blogger friend of mine whose name is My Infertile Confessions, gave me my first blogger award! Thank you so much. You are such a sweet friend.

The rules for accepting this award are:


1. Thank and link back to the person who awarded you the award.

2. Share 7 things about yourself.

3. Award 15 other bloggers.

4. Contact these bloggers and tell them about the award.


Here are seven things about me:

1. First and foremost, I am a Christian and I loved the Lord my God with all my heart! He died on the cross so that I can live!!!

2. I have two of the sweetest, most hyper miniature dachshunds ever and I love them to death. I treat them as if they are real babies and they are spoiled rotten.

3. I love to go mountain biking. DH and I bought bikes last summer and are hooked. We can't wait for it to warm up so we can start riding again. p.s. I don't like riding in cold weather!

4. I have never had surgery or ever been put to sleep until I was diagnosed with INFERTLITY. In the past 2 years I have had 6 procedures/surgeries and have been put to sleep 3 different times. Wow....and still NO BABY! Def. the hardest journey ever!

5. I ABSOLUTELY love Mexican and Japanese food!!! I could seriously eat it EVERY day!!

6. My DH and I use to double date together when we were with our ex's. So we went on double dates together before we even started dating each other. So funny!!!!

7. I LOVE to talk. I hardly ever meet a stranger. On the other hand, it's like pulling teeth to even get my DH to speak to anyone he doesn't know. He is VERY shy!!!! I guess opposites do attract!!!!



**I don't follow that many blogs so I am only going to nominated a few****


I'd like to share this award with:


Tanner Traditions

The Life of A Husband and Wife

The Yerkes Life

Walk with me by Faith

I know it's been a while....

Hey ladies! I know it's been a while since I've given you an update, but not much has happened. I've still been working on losing weight. I've lost 22.6 lbs now!!! Excited it not even close to how I feel. DH and I have already books our beach trip for our 4 year anniversary in June. I'm ready to sport that bathing suit and short. But of course if for "SOME REASON" I have a belly bump (LOL) I would still sport that with pride!!! LOL! We go back to the doctor the middle of February, that is unless AF shows up on her own around the 7th. Then we will go sooner. Which is fine with me! I'm ready to get things starting again!!!

On another note, I got a (new to me) vehicle. YAY!!! I LOVE IT! It's a 2006 Honda Pilot. We have plenty of room to grow into now.

LOVE IT!!! I have been wanting one of these for a long time!!!!
Third row seats!!! Lots of room!!! Now all we need is a baby to fill up that space!!!

Just The Girls

This past weekend was my mom's 48th Birthday. I called my Aunts (My mom's sisters) and asked if they wanted to go out with us Friday night. We decided we would all go to Sips and Stokes. If you haven't heard of this before, it a class that teaches you how to paint a certain painting while you sip on wine or any other drink. We had such a great time and i could tell my mom really enjoyed it.

Me and My Mom getting ready to paint. The best Mom ever!!!

My Aunts Theresa and Margaret. Love these Gals!!!

The Finished Product! Theresa, Me, My Mom, and Margaret.

Eating TCBY after painting. Poor Margaret had to sit in the naughty chair. LOL!!!



This is a video of my Aunts practicing their ZUMBA while our paintings dried at Sips and Stokes. P.S. They didn't know that I was videoing them! Lol!

Updates: AF, TTC, WEIGHT.......

This is a little update about EVERYTHING.

Update #1 -AF
. Well af showed up last friday. After being gone for nearly 2 months she decided to show up. I guess I have to be positive and be glad that at least she did show up on her own. I'm just hoping that those pesky cysts are gone now


Update #2 -TTC
DH and I decided that we are not going to start trying to have a baby again this month. We decided to put it off for another month and start trying again in February. We are waiting mainly because we still need a break. You don't have much of a break during the holidays because of visiting with family and having to go here and there and everywhere. So we decided we needed a longer break. Can't believe I'm actually saying that, but I really need it.


Update #3 -WEIGHT
I have been on my diet for 6 weeks today and had my 6 week weigh in this afternoon. I have lost 17.2 LBS total now!!!!!!! WOW....I'm so proud of myself. I'm almost half way to my goal. Only 20 more to go. Lol.

Questions Still UNANSWERED.....

Well a year ago today (Jan 5, 2010) we lost our sweet baby. I went in at 6:00 am to the surgical center and was put to sleep for my d&c. I don't want to go back into details or get myself upset again by re-living that day so I am just going to link you to the blog I wrote about it and the days that followed. D&C DAY and DAYS LATER. Those next few days had me questioning God. Not only about what had happened, but even about who he is. How he could let that happen. I know it's wrong to question God in any way, but in times like those i think God forgives us for not trusting in him. He understands that we are at our lowest and we have to learn that the only way up is to have faith. The sad thing is that even today I wish I knew the answer to at least ONE of the questions that I begged God to tell me. "WHY?" That's all I wanted and STILL want to know today. I can only hope that one day God will show me why he let such a thing happen to us. Why he made us go through all that pain? Why he tested our faith so much? Why would he take away the thing that meant the most to us? And why infertility and miscarriage is now a part of our lives? Ok, so there is a lot of "Why" questions that I would love to know. I have a feeling that 20 years from now I will still be asking these same questions, but in the end I have learned that it all boils down to FAITH. Faith in God and his plans for us.

I know i haven't been blogging much and what little I have been blogging has been about past events and emotions and I'm sorry I've been a "Debbie Downer" here lately. It's been a hard past few weeks and even though it has been a whole year ago that all this has happened, it still feels like it happened yesterday. I'm ready to get back to the TTC journey but unfortunately it looks like Mid February is when we will start trying again. That kind of makes me sad but maybe the wait will pay off. I don't have much to blog about and that's why I haven't been blogging a lot. I promise I will try and do better though. LOL.

Apparently, Regular is NOT a word that my body understands...

Well as you know, we have been ttc the good old fashion way since the end of November. Well af was due on Dec. 18 but she never showed. DH and I couldn't stand it anymore so I took a pregnancy test on Christmas Eve. And NO we didn't get the Christmas present that we REALLY wanted. It was negative. Af still hadn't showed up, which did not surprise me at all. But this week I have been spotting a little. Not sure what is going on. Who knows with my crazy body. I will spot one day and nothing the next. This has been going on for 5 days now. So, I've come to the conclusion that my body doesn't know what the definition to REGULAR is. I had to laugh at DH though. I told him the other day that i thought af was coming and he said "It shows up just out of nowhere?". Lol.....yep hun. That is the story of my life. Never know when or where so you have to always be prepared! Haha!!!!