Nestled in the Arms of the Lord...

We actually got to go to our dr appointment this morning. They ended up opening this morning. As you can tell from the title our little one put up a hard fight but is now in our Heavenly Fathers arms. We had our ultrasound and the tech searched long and hard but we couldn't find a heartbeat anywhere. Also there still had been no growth. DH and I were upset but we were also prepared for the worst and we took it pretty well. After talking to the doc we decided to go ahead and get the d&c done today too. So when we left the office we went straight to the outpatient center to get ready for the procedure. Everything went well and we are now home relaxing and thanking God for the blessings that we STILL have. So many around us have lost homes and loved ones during this tornado Wednesday and God protected us. We had no damage and all our family is safe. So even though we are morning the loss of our little one, we are still thanking God for our many blessings! Thank you everyone for your kind words and prayers! We love you all!

Update

Sorry it took me so long to update......thanks ladies for caring so much and praying for us.

Mondays ultrasound was heart wrenching. Baby still showed no growth and its heart rate went down to 61 bpm. I've been upset BUT I have to keep thinking that God is keeping that heart beating for a reason!!! He/she sure is a fighter! We are suppose to go back to the doc tomorrow for another ultrasound but a tornado hit our town last night and the doc office has minor damage and is closed. So not sure when our appointment will be rescheduled.
I promise to keep yall updated on a regular basis. Love yall and please keep the prayers coming!!!

PRAYERS NEEDED.......

This has been a rough week. We went to our 2nd ultrasound appointment Tuesday and we were so excited to see our little one again and see how much he/she had grown over the week. But our hearts broke in half when the ultrasound tech told us that the baby had only grown 1 day bigger over the past 7 days. Also we got to measure the heart rate and our poor little one isn't doing well. It's heart rate only measured 71 bpm. The RE said that normal range is over 100 bpm at this stage. We finished with the ultrasound and went into a room waiting for the RE to come in and talk with us. When she came in she acted like we had already lost the baby. She gave me a hug, told me she was so sorry, and then started asking me if i would rather have a D&C this time or just let the miscarriage happen naturally. My mouth dropped i was so in shock. She went on talking about how they can send the fetus off to be tested to see what was wrong with it and they could do genetic test on me and DH that day!!! WHAT???? I was beyond mad. They were sitting there acting like my baby was DEAD. My baby STILL has a heartbeat! MY BABY IS NOT DEAD! Needless to say when we left there we called my OB/GYN and scheduled an appointment with him. I understand the RE trying to be honest and upfront about the possibility of losing our little one BUT we the baby is NOT dead. They were WAY out of line bringing all that up at the moment.

Anyways, we went to see my OB/GYN thursday (which was my BIRTHDAY) and we got a little better report. The baby had grown another day bigger over the past two days and its heart rate had went from 71 to 85 bpm. He did tell us that there was still a lot of concern because of the low heart rate but IT'S ALL IN GOD'S HANDS. Yes my doctor told me that. I love him. He is such a great Christian man. This was a great day to me because we got to HEAR the heartbeat for the first time. That was the sweetest sound ever. Such a GREAT birthday gift.

We go back to the OB Monday to see if there are any more improvements. Please keep us in your prayers.

We have a HEARTBEAT!!!!!!!

We got our first ultrasound Tuesday April 12th and it was such a relief to see that little flicker on the screen! The baby is so TINY and looks like a little comma. LOL. At the branch office we go to you can't measure or hear the heartbeat with their machines. Kind of disappointing but we did get to watch that little flicker just beating away on the screen. Next ultrasound we are going to the main office in Birmingham because the branch office is going on vacation. Hopefully the main office will have the machines so we can hear the heartbeat this time. You really can't tell much from the pic but I am so proud of my little miracle!!! Keep growing little one. Can't wait to see you again!

Ok...I'll help you out with what your seeing. Lol. The circle on the right is the yolk sac which is giving the baby its nutrients until the placenta forms. The little comma on the left side of the circle is our little baby! Very tiny but already has a heartbeat! Thank you God for this MIRACLE!

FAITH.......

Faith is something that we have had to have A LOT of during this ttc journey. We had to have FAITH that we were following God's will for our lives when we decided to approach the ART Program. We had to have FAITH that God would give the doctors the knowledge to find out what the problem was. We had to have FAITH that God was in control when we lost our first baby. We had to have FAITH that God would bless us again with a miracle (and he has). And now we have to have FAITH that he will take care of our little baby and will protect him/her. And even in the future we will have to have FAITH in everything we do and everything involving this little miracle he has blessed us with.

Looking back on how much FAITH has to do with our lives, DH and I have decided that if our baby is a GIRL her middle name will definitely be FAITH.

Beta #3= 3,176.....WOW

Wow.....I can't believe how high my beta climbed this week. It went from 163 to 3,176. I'm so excited!!!! I am 5 weeks and 3 days pregnant today (according to my last menstrual period). My RE wanted me to go for a ultrasound in 2 days because she said that she likes for anyone with numbers over 3,000 to get an ultrasound to make sure there is no tubal problems. BUT....I declined. I told the nurse that I did NOT want an early ultrasound. I want to wait until I am far enough along to actually see some part of the baby on the ultrasound. I would worry myself CRAZY if I went in there this week and only saw a sac with nothing in it. That is seriously my worst fear right now. I DO NOT want to re-live our first pregnancy over again. So with that.....our first ultrasound will be at 6 weeks and 3 days pregnant! I'm very excited and scared at the same time!!!!!! But I know that it is all in God's hands and he will take care of us!!! Please keep us in your prayers!!!!

Beautiful Sunday on the U of A Campus

Today was way to BEAUTIFUL to stay indoors....so we decided to take the pups for a walk. We live about 5 minutes from UA campus so we strolled down to the quad and took some pics! The pups had a blast checking out all of the people and other pups enjoying the weather. My sweet hubby and our girls!!!

Me and my Sweet ALI

Me and my other sweet girl LEXI

Denny Chimes

Bryant-Denny Stadium